13.12.14

Indulgence - Indulgence

The universe appears to have conspired
I've fallen for this beauty of a vampire
And I will give blood, drink
It's a bound bond, a link

I will not give this up
You're happy, I won't stop
I will not give this up!
I'll bear, stub after stub!

I start to fall apart
No longer is my heart
It's sad that pain is true
For it may come for you

I will stay determined
I'll shake off every burden
I shall stick to plan
I'll bear, stab after stab

I must be your blessing
There is no digressing
To the end I'll stick right here
To the end I'll slay every tear

How could perfection be so puzzled?
And how is it possible to be so dazzled
How could it be that I bear this will?
I have beared, kill after kill

Where there is a will there is a way
Where I am killed, where I shall decay

Delusion.

Indulgence - المكان

ما نحن إلا ساقطون
في مكان غير مفهوم
في صبر لقدر غير معلوم
فهل يموت الإنساب مهزوم؟
و هل نترك ورائنا آثار؟
و هل الموت يجعلنا احرار؟

ما انا إلا إنسان
و ما انا تاركُ هذا المكان
حتى نعيش احرار
و حتى نترك خير آثار
حتى يتوقف ضرب الرماح
و حتى يصمت صريخ الرياح

لن أقبل بالموت مهزوم
و لن أقبل تفسيراً للجنون
السلام ليس فقط أمنية
و الصمت شرُ إن ليس حرية

Indulgence - Illusion of thought

As I stand alone here
As I see this demon tremble in fear
Afraid of my holy might
He shall not pass here without a fight
This is no game!
I shall become your bane
This is no play!
This enemy I must slay
Felt the evil he has brought
And so we furiously fought

As I walk through this dark night
A devil has appeared
Oh, and the cursed beast brought none but fear
There was no choice but to fight
For it was no game
Slay or be slain!
It is no play
The price he must pay

And so they both battled furiously
The devil met his fate hideously
The two devils fought and fought
Blinded of this illusion of thought
It is but a game
There is no gain
They never knew
It was but a difference of view

Indulgence - The walls

We cast a shadow on the walls
We trap their lives and bound them all
We make them think there is no wall
Then desolate their clueless souls

You'll feed on lies, stay in the dark
A clueless dog will never bark
The only way through the wall is art
For only the holy will light the dark

Oh, the wall it stands so high
Oh, will this path be for the wise
Only those who bear true sight
The only ones who can see the light

They'll fight the lies, they'll never fall
They'll hear true cries, they will be whole
Thet'll speak what's true, answer the call
They'll come for you to release your soul

Break down your walls and reach your goal

Indulgence - My lover runs on fuel

Oh, how she is my perfect mate
She's half human and half mermaid
When I don't want her
She'll stay in the water

She's free at my will
Once I let her out
I let her breathe so she'll live
My love she will not doubt

The engines I blessed her with
Will make sure that I get joy off this
When I turn them on, she never turns off
And they make her smile so my conscience won't rot

She bores me and so I put her back
I love her surely that's a fact
Desperate needs call for desperate measures
In my eyes it is right to seek my pleasure

You all know you need this too
Don't lie
Real ones are just too true
Not my type

Indulgence - Stone messiah

A long time ago in a faraway land
There existed a palace in a desert of sand
The king of the palace the almighty
"I must run down through all history"
At his sight, the people of the sand tremble
The land they walked, he was its center
You all now feel the fear I bring
And you all shall now hail to your king

"The heavens shall sing me holy choire"
"In this land, I am the messiah"
"Sticks and stones may break your bones"
"But into your god, I have grown"
"You shall build a monument of honor for me"
"And so till the end of time it will be"
But the king knew not
That his monument shall rot

Once it was found there was nothing
No choires were sung and no fear did it bring
For the feet of the statue were all that remain
And a generation of liberty full of disdain

Indulgence - A greater nation

I found a remorseless, resourceless type of rule
We'll create a frightening, mighty, holy group
An eternal, immortal point of a view
For diplomatic, undogmatic dogs like you

I shall eradicate your damnation
I shall eradicate all contamenation
For the cowards we shall plant the fear
That shall make them stick just right here
For the patient we shall promise a prize
A life full of wrongs ends with demise

I found a remorseless, sourceless religion
It will protect us, and prevent us from division
You're a king but I am a god of a nation
I am a creator, you are but my creation

I made remorseless and hopeless rusty tools
They've switched to a selfish, sadistic group of fools
They all claim the right to rule a nation
They all pave a way for damnation

Indulgence - Once free

United we stand
Hand in hand
We all are one
Upon the ground
Under the sun
We were all one sound

And so comes the nature of the land
And so all is destroyed by the greed of man
Under an innate rule
Dogma is now a power-tool
The damage is done
We're frowned upon

For we were free

Our saints, they've found the true divine
Our saints, they seek power and feed us lies
Our saints have climbed until the sky
Our saints are the ones who should truly die
"One for all and all for one"
These saints they're blind of what shall come

They sought their power
Made us all cowards
They split us apart
To shake the peoples' hearts
They forbid us to reunite
For fear of our might

27.11.14

Us - Limbo

Don't let your sickness make you look for a leader
Don't let your faith make you look for a believer
Don't let the world teach you what to be
Don't let the authority choose what you see

They'll not win my heart
And they'll not drive us apart
Oh, the love and the sympathy
And I will make sure that I am free

Oh what I seek
Yes I'll fight
Oh and I will reach
And I will fight
For what remains of life
So please shed some light
Where I can't see
Help me reach what you won't be

I'll taint my hate
Shed some light where I can't see
Meet your fate
Won't you heal this memory?

Us - The game

I can't be a part of this game
You and me will share this pain
The more you're wrong the more you'll blame
The more you play the less you're sane

The pictures lies without a frame
The more I look the less I'm sane
I've found myself a part of this game
Got on my feet to fall again

I walk through a path where we're all the same
A trail of blood where all are slain
The more I'm killed the less I'm sane
The more the guilt the less the shame
The more you cry, the less your pain
Find your cure to start your bane
The more you die, the less I'm insane
You and me must share this game

Us - Conscience

No end is near
Your path is clear
A smile, a tear
Inherent fear

Right and wrong
A human's song
Regrets prolong
We kneel so strong

Black and white
Internal fight
A shining night
Opaques the light

A spark embarks
Within the dark
A demon's mark
We're pulled apart

A lost guide
Too deep inside
The god of minds
A sight of the blind

Us - My light

I have come to find myself a part of the ground
To your heart I have become bound
And thanks to you, myself I have found
But I was only a part of the ground

You walked through a road upon my head
You were leading and I was led
I loved and you used instead
You walked through a mere road and I was dead

To find yourself I have paid
You slowly start to fade
I see you head towards your light
I've come to follow you in fright

You turned around "This light is mine"
I am sure that this light, I can find
And suddenly you've started to fade
And the light has transformed into haze

Us - "In the beginning..."

Let there be light
Let us dig the abyss
Let there be fright
He didn't concentrate making this

Let there be organisms
Let there be materialism
Teach them to fear
Say the end is near

Point at the light
Watch them run in fright
As the light is the abyss
And you've caused the crisis

Us - Relentless

I have held on too strong to my pride now
Within this emptiness we've alligned now
Oh, and this dependence, so pitiful
They all go there and back again, ready to fall

The path is wide and endless
It is not ours to end this

It's pitiful

We're dark and senseless
In search of a light for guidance

We'll follow

The source is our own perfections
When we are certainly its reflections

Yet sinful

Within the darkest times, truths will show
Explore the dark and so you'll know

We're hollow

To face our darkness here
We rid ourselves of fear

So hopeless

This world with its tensions
Has nullified all our intentions

Relentless

Us - The pursuit of knowledge

Set sail the ship but never knew
He had no anchor
Day after day he quickly grew
In search of all the answers

These raging waves, they took left and right
The wrong, the right versus the dark and the light
He has stepped into the fight

Corals, stones and crushed glaciers
Morals, thrones and search of natures

A pledge he took
The ship was shook
Each tip of thought
The knowledge's sought
He's stepped in and fought

Flows and flows through the seas
A sickened man of what he sees
The man, homesick, can not withstand
Begins his search for land
Only to find himself too far
There's no home where we are

Us - The fruit

It's all to begin
Hear these angels sing
Adam, they all kneel for you
O! Adam you have no clue

Out of nothing, the lord made everything
The price he asks is but to walk on this thin string
Only after we create her
Will Adam release his nature
Found himself in the garden of eden
Never witnessed the world's deceival
Be earless to the serpent's flute
Never shall you eat from this fruit!

Fooled to think it was a melody of paradise
Grabbing his denial, the evil always seems so nice
And so the devil came near
His melody took away all fear
Finally arrive the whispers of greed
"On the fruit of knowledge you must feed"
"Trivial you've been made, he deprived you of that"
"To stay trivial is your choice, or will you act?"

Inside Adam our nature grew
"The fruit will take you to a place you never knew"
And so there was a broken pledge
And consumed was the fruit of knowledge

Sent to Earth, humans curse-bound
Lands on his head, hit the ground
And so the game begins
And so let's play with sins

Us - Intro

I apologize for the delay but thank you for sticking this long if you are reading this.
I hope you enjoy it.

1-The fruit
2-the pursuit of knowledge
3-Relentless
4-"In the beginning..."
5-My light
6-Conscience
7-The game
8-Limbo

1.11.14

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7.9.14

DEVIL'S DESIRES - 37°

Set me free and just keep me alive
Set me free and don't let me die
I'm fully awakened
I can not take this
I'm wide awake
I'll slowly break
Down
Slowly drowned

See me fall
A silent call
I'm far within
End to begin
Locked inside you
Do what you want to
I can't come out to play
So just push me away

Hear you call
A safe fall
What a fun ride
I'm far outside
Locked within me
Don't ever try to flee
Go and stay
Show me another way

Knock me down
See it come back around
Oh, dear heaven
Stuck in a 37

Knock you down
Crushed the ground
Open a pit of devils
All in one 37

Save myself from myself
Save yourself from this hell

DEVIL'S DESIRES - DISCLOSURE

All these words that rise in ny head
Simple lies I just couldn't be fed
I stopped once another time to look
Stopped twice to know its part of the book

All these words race in my mind
Any dogma I just never could find
I stopped once to look for someone to blame
Stopped twice to see it's part of the game

All this corruption that has run through my blood
All these downfalls ending straight in the mud
I stopped once to condemn myself with the sin
Stopped twice to see it's just to begin

These feelings that are consuming my heart
This rage that had torn me apart
I stopped once to see I'm really alone
Stopped twice to see it all turned to stone

This disclosure that is crushing my soul
Even the boldest shall never be whole
He stopped to see the dark and the light
He stopped twice to see the wrong and the right

DEVIL'S DESIRES - THE SEED

Psycho bitch I'm your seed, now water
Psycho bitch, I'm the lover you slaughter
I wanna feel your power and give it back to you
I want the whole thing, a little part won't do

Give us your combined suicide
C'mon little bitch, time to decide
Grow the hunger that is building inside
Push the limits, remove our combined pride

C'mon closer my serpent whore
There is a fury like never before
Take it a give it back you bastard
Let this fury grow between us our faster
My patience doesn't last so long
Strike me with our combined fury so strong
Time to end this battle, you know
Give me the fury that will end this show
It's too late this fiery fury will never fade
Get used to it, don't be afraid

My passion strengthens now
This love is more than I can allow
Oh, I need a strong strike again
Tell me Medusa, is this ever to end?

My sweetheart the hunger is only getting bigger
The only way is for both of us to pull the trigger
Murder or suicide?
The wicked tale ends with homocide

DEVIL'S DESIRES - DEVILS IN SUBMISSION

In my own black cursed land
All shall fall to my demand
The fall was peaceful and white
The punishment was soon to arrive

Took the evil as his very slave
The king of demons, so brave
Enslaved the very demons of hell
Stories of king Solomon all shall tell

All down to your knees to the king
A symphony of angels where devils sing
Down his holy golden way
That ends every man's dismay

He is the king Solomon, kneel
Spirituality that seemed so unreal
Tamed the very devil by his horn
Made him one slave of his own

He is the king Solomon bow
He is the king so kneel to the crown
He is the man of black light
He is the man of wrong right

Tainting the sins with his glowing gold
A man of an ability no one can behold
He shall seal the fate of the devils
He shall conceal the gates of heavens

DEVIL'S DESIRES - THE MOON OF BELIAL

Intro:-
Belial is the demon of the invention of new sin and he awakens in January.

POEM

The final moon of the year is gone
The haunted Belial soul shall rise upon
The dawn of a new year
Oh, oh, this trembling fear

Oh, the dawn of a new night
A beginning of a new fight
The coming of a newly born sin
All the world shall be caught within

Belial has escaped the chains of his star
To destroy men with what they really are
To conflict a man with his own soul
To cause a man his inner fall

A sudden unfelt strong upheaval
The inventor and father of the new evil
He has come to reveal your true intention
He's come to extend your true trangressions

DEVIL'S DESIRES - ALIGHT YOURSELF

Lost in the never-ending dark
Bound by the devil's cursed mark
Do you ever fight yourself?
Does it ever just grow in your head?

Get through this misleading fear of the night
Where there is a shadow there shall be light
Do you ever alight yourself?
Do devils show any relent?

Are you alive or dead?
Between all of this homocide
How will you define yourself
Are you always to abide to this hell?

DEVIL'S DESIRES - TRIBUTE

Intro:-
This poem speaks of my two main influences, inspirations and role models.
Actually I can't call them two men but I can call them two set of men and those are the American band, Tool (https://m.facebook.com/ToolMusic) and the great Egyptian band which is Anarchy (
https://m.facebook.com/profile.php?id=199722866732316).

POEM

This is my tribute
To those who aid me in the dispute
Those who've led me through my battle within
A man whose words are divinely wise
And a great man with tales of great demise

He who's suffered for 10,000 days
He who's changed me in many ways
The headbanger that brought me to this
And the man who believed pain doesn't exist

He who has awakened me
A man of holy anarchy
He who has later become my fuel
A man who has never been a tool

DEVIL'S DESIRES - INTRO

This is my 17th set and hopefully it's as entertaining as it is meant to be.

14.8.14

REMAKES - EXILED

Intro:-
This poem is obviously on the set "Exiled" and it tells the story of a demon of my creation and the angel Metatron from the bible.
Metatron writes down the scripts of all lives so with time he begins to witness evils and so an evil is born within his soul but as an archangel he is meant to be perfect so that evil is expelled from his soul in the form of a demon and that demon is called Exiled.

POEM

Oh, oh, archangel Metatron
From your ink you can't run
Condemned by a sin not your own
A book with pages that turn to stone

As the sinners learn
The book does burn
This unkind mankind learns to sin
As they scar the archangel from within

The damage this world has taken
The ancient has been awakened
Of the acts of a world so torn
The demon Exiled was born

The havoc that Exiled shall rise
Creator and creation in demise

The demon Exiled
Desperate Metatron's inner trials
But there is no denial
That this world has been defiled

The pages turn and rip
Fate said from a devil's lips
The whole world disposed in doom
Time corrupt with the sonic booms

REMAKES - EXECUTION OF LOVE

Intro:-
This one is from the set "anti society wise" and it attacks the way love is looked at by societies in the middle east.

POEM

Leave me like you leave all others
Leave me like you left all my rebel brothers
Leave me from the irrelevant pain
Leave me, submit to the restrains

Stabbing my heart was not so nice
Leave me now in this land of ice
Leave me all alone in this ice berg
I guess it all was really just words

Stay here so you'd freeze with me
It felt warm when we tried to flee
Broke my heart and shattered my dreams
Darling, ending me was kind of mean

So here in the ice we now lie
So here in the ice we now die
Darling, ending me was not so kind
Darling, why do we have to be so blind?

Trajic yet the wind sings "La la la"
A star once exploded, now a supernova
We had so much to dream of
Forbiden by an execution of love

REMAKES - HERMES GOT HERPES

Intro:-
This poem is from the set "Exiled II" and it speaks of the people who represent religion in bad/wrong ways.

POEM

Hermes is unaware that this message
Will be passed down through all lineage
In fact Hermes is aware
He just tends not to care

"If all of them will unite"
"Then anything would seem to be the light"
Hermes never thought that religion
Could ever be a cause of division

Hermes took advantage that god has spoken
Upon a race confused and broken
Hermes translated in his own way
Now it's like god orders us to slay
Hermes was to get a whole race refined
Instead he enlightened us with his own mind

Who gave Hermes the right?
To represent holy might
Us. We made it seem okay
We assumed god orders us to slay

We let religion separate
We gave in to this hate
We let holiness represented by Hermes
Unfortunately we don't know that he got herpes

REMAKES - NULLOPHOBIA

Intro:-
This poem is from the set "Anti society wise" and it speaks of how fear holds us back especially when it's fear of nothing.

POEM

A bleeding soul trapped
Stuck in non-existent crap
A fear that holds a soul behind
A fear that denies a man his pride

Fear that makes a life go dull
Fear outcoming to absolute null
Fear that drives a mind plain
Fear that drives a man insane

A fear we must all overcome
A fear we must all outrun
The killing fear of nothingness
Where there's nothing's curse without nothing's bless

This fear will take ourselves
This fear is a piece of hell
The fear constantly resurrects
The fear constantly corrupts

REMAKES - THE HOLY ASCENDING

Intro:-
This poem is from the set "Exiled II and speaks of a man who has abandoned all sin to go through what I called a holy ascending.

POEM

In a pursuit of a new and different light
In escape from this rapid and global blight
In escape from this world of sin
In pursuit of a light so dim

Warned that this fight was so long
Tired of this race of blessed wrongs
Leave behind a land of men fumbling
The tunnel is long and I'm stumbling

Finding there is no right and left
Its just a clear and honest test
Oh I see that light again
So bright and shimmering
Inviting me to come back inside
One more chance, don't look behind
One last time to start once again
Come, ascend and step within

REMAKES - INTRO

This is the 16th set and it's different from all the others as in this set I remade old poems that I thought deserved more and that I could give them more.
I really hope all readers enjoy this and I hope I didn't ruin any old poems.

30.7.14

PAIN - QUEEN OF HEAVENS (ANNELIESE PART 2)

You lose your way in the light
Oh, you shine so bright
You're the only who should your head up high
Walking through the holy, diving through the sky
You're the only one who can truly ascend
In a lighted straight way with not one bend
You're the only one with a truly shining face
You're the only one who can step out fron disgrace
You're the only one who can see the way
You're the body that is never to decay

The dead have screamed with me
The injustice you were to see
Anneliese Michel has died
How ironic, only the dead fucking cried

Ann, oh teach us your lesson
Please show us your heaven
Please guide our way through
When the time comes we shall join you

PAIN - ANNELIESE MICHEL

Intro:-

Anyone heard of the movie called "Exorcism of Emily Rose".
Anneliese michel is the real "Emily Rose".
Exorcisms have been practiced on Annelliese until she was convinced that she was a sinner and starved herself to death when she only had epilepsy.

Annelise Michel died in 1975

POEM

Young lady has been stained
Young lady has gone insane
The lady meets a deadly fate
A result of the evil we create

Belial, Judas and Legion
Three once men now demons
Treason, insanity and murder
All put upon her as a mortal burden

First comes the murderous Cain
Who carries every murder's blame
Seconds comes Belial the worthless
Invading her body and soul remorseless

Third comes the tyrancy of Nero
He who's killed men and heroes
Fourth comes the student of the christ
He who is blind of the light

Fifth comes legion the mad
Thousands of possessions he had
Sixth comes the morning star
To show us that we are the origin of what devils are

When the devils commit no crimes
When men fight upon the dimes
You know they'll stop at no cost
You know we are completely lost

A poor girl dies in fears
A scum human gives no tears

Anneliese Michel young and well (left)
Anneliese Michel days before death (right)

PAIN - SPEECH FOR AN ANGEL

This little light of mine
This golden glow, so divine
The glow you passed on to me
All I use to be able to see

This golden glow, so divine
What you left before you died
All I used to be able to see
Is the memories of what you used to be

What you left before you died
Guidance with a boy broken inside
These feelings I can no longer hide
The memory, it's pain will never subside

Forgive my lack of sense
But I wish for your presence
Please answer this call
I will never be whole

Please hear the speech
I hope my words reach

The hero
Golden halo
Thank you
I grew

Artwork by the magnificent Laila Wahdan

PAIN - DISCONNECT

Intro:-
I think this is the best poem on this set, it has been written by myself and Amr Alaa Sarhan.
It speaks of the journey a child goes through to discover the sad truth about the world

POEM

Born, found liquids within me flow
Basically I thought I was but a clone
A life of happiness, all I've known
In this silent place I have grown

A house full of respect
No flaws to detect
A child too innocent to suspect
That it was just a disconnect
Reality disconnect

Constantly I looked up to every hero
Soldiers of justice chasing virtue
Only wanted to be a hero like you
Evolved now to see none of it was true

As I stood at the doorstep of the madhouse
Unrecognizable sound, blurry vision
Too hesitated to make a decision
A far faint light shines
I shall enter and cross the line
After a while I start to realize
There were no fireworks ignition
I've walked into a land far beyond superstition
Hypocrisy infection, religious deception
Glorified lies, morality dies
Deceiving leaders, imprisoned truth seekers
Famous junkies starving countries
And the far faint light
Was just another gunfight
That was an overwhelming shock
Enough to undermine my principles
And be convinced that to live in this society
I must join the flock

I must become one
To the world I must succumb
For virtue there is no space
Discovered the nature of this race
Now I have truly "grown"
To possess a heart of stone
No longer hearing the gunfight's noise
I've given in, I had no choice
This is not what I desire
I wish to rise higher
There was always a price to pay
The old me is distantly faraway
Never wanted to be this way
But either this or be the prey

The evil has taken over me
I seek to become any hero I can be
The young I try to teach
But this lesson can not be preached

29.7.14

PAIN - A GLIMMER

Intro:-
This post contains two small poems that state direct morals.
Poem #2 by Amr Alaa Sarhan.

Poem #1:-

Sins are a part of life
Sins are a tool of the strife
We all sin but sin differently
If you sin, sin pridefully
Your soul objective is to control
The outcome of the sins, the overall
To be certain you're dead
Without one sin you've spread

Poem #2:-

Walking down this boulevard
To find it's but a graveyard
Designed luxuriously by the old
Designed to be holy and cold
Sidelines covered with fences
They tend to call them defences
To hold your soul bound
So you wouldn't wander around
At last my soul has risen
Taken down the fences
Leave the herd behind
"Doubt everything, find your own light"

PAIN - SCAR

Splitting apart my veins
The scar reminds me I'm insane
The scar whispers a truth in my ear
That I am unlucky to be here

The scar blackens before my eye
Promising to stick until I die
The scar darker than dark
Promises an eternal mark

Oh, you unholy scar
How you kill me from afar
Constantly in rapid growth
Denying me what I'm worth

Oh, unholy scar what are you?
Oh, unholy scar there is no clue
I feel you're growing within
Somehow I know what's happening

PAIN - DEPREZIUM II

Intro:-
Deprezium has not died but has only been resurrected.

POEM

The agony of this universe
Reincarnated to distribute the curse
I've come to punish sin with pain
A pain enough to drive one insane

I am the superior creation
Sole purpose is sanity annihilation
Strong but inside defenseless
Taste the potence of the relentless

I don't want it, I was born for it
Never will know by what you were hit
Electricity and static in your veins
Waves of heat mixed with the shame

Reality not what it seens
Like imprisoned in dreams
Boiling blood rushes through your head
Makes you wish you were dead

Gave into your whispering sin
Slaughtered her and also him
The power the likes of you seek
That power upon you I'll wreak

May your dreams slay one another
May you feel a pain like no other
Only blackness you can see
You'll now cease to be

PAIN - DEPREZIUM I

Intro:-
Ever wondered who's been through the most pain ever? Enjoy "Deprezium I".

POEM

Under a curse my life's been set
Seen nothing but torture and regret
Never knew what happiness meant
It was never anything I met

Never seen a happy day
Chained in eternal dismay
I walk the long dark way
An eternal blackness blocks sun of the day

Brother, sister and wife fell
Inside me, memories dwell
Alive yet burned by hell
Trapped in misery's cell

Forced to kill my birth-givers
One fatal stab, a bloody river
My only success was the misery I deliver

Reflecting on all I've done
An opaque reflection I look upon
Remembering now all is gone
Staring at a sky with no sun

Cursed for no reason
Eager for my leaving
Nothing left to believe in
Nothing left to feel within

I feel a spiritual offending
One that asks for no defending
My life it is finally ending
Body and soul ascending

PAIN - THIRD EYE


Intro:-

This poem criticizes how society looks at religion and states that it is a personal choice and nothing but an invidual's lifestyle.

POEM

Pretty sure this is all untrue
Pretty sure I can't really trust you
Pretty sure you don't know what's right
Pretty sure I haven't yet seen the light

What's the proof I will rise to heaven?
What if it's just full of devils?
What's a proof I will fall in hell?
Who are you to really tell?

Something holy but contradicting
I wanna see what's so really addicting
You have lost respect from me
Peace used but not peacefully

I truly believe in more
You can't see what I'm searching for
What's beyond a holy asphyxiation
I seek the strength to beat damnation

I must light the way to see
How to use peace peacefully
I mean to see no sky
The opening of my third eye

Can't you see the pain you're inflicting?
Doesn't it feel a little contradicting?
Never knew that violence is so addicting
I wish you knew to what you're clinging

It's something beautiful god has blessed
I guess we find it easy to make a mess
Such a disgrace to our modern time
How we fail to open our third eye

I am released from the asphyxiation
Off to seek the spell of true creation

PAIN - RISE

Break the nature, overcome
Prove they aren't what you'll become
Crush the normal, be the one
Prove the others deaf and dumb

I have rised to a level
Where angels become devils
Rise above the hate and the jealousy
Rise above what the fate wants you to be

Rise above to divine level
Rise above, be an angelic devil
Rise above the lust and the envy
See the corrupt truthfully

Rise above, be a god of the mind
Rise above, come to finally find
The mind's too strong to control
Stand strong, bright and tall

PAIN - LOSS

The world is full of strange things that seem natural in our eyes because they are natural but their sensation is never natural to the one who meets them.
Today I want to manifest and show a case of one of those things and that thing is the pain of loss, how the efforts or passions of our lives accumulate over months and years only to be lost in a matter of one second. We find it hard to believe that what we have built over the time of our whole lives or what we've lived by all this time has gone and vanished in one second because for all the time we've been building or living by this thing/person we were constantly denying that it could ever be gone but suddenly it's vanished.
Whether the pain of loss that we have gone through is the death of a beloved or an idol, a denial for all the progress we've made for a certain cause or even a loss of a moral we've grown by for the rest of our lives it's inevitable that one will lose such a thing throughout their life but what must be understood is that we are humans that have grown from inventing fire as if it's a miracle to now surpassing the velocity of sound as if it's nothing, we are a constantly evolving race and we were made for nothing certain but to adapt to any conditions that we could possible adapt to which does not mean we should not mourn upon our loss but that we accept our loss and use it to evolve ourselves because in my opinion the strongest evolving occurs when we go through pain.
I am not an optimist, just try to relate beyond the lines.

PAIN - BATTLEFIELD

Intro:-
I have never believed that war was part of our instincts but to benefit the "higher" people and this is exactly what this poem is talking about, how war never is pleasing for the warrior and that there is no honor in it.
Every verse and the next shifts between the point of view of the man and his soul.

POEM

Arms numb from the weight of the rifle
Surrounding desperate use of the bible
Hate and lies, I'm stuck inside
I only seem to be alive

Gone numb from the survival
Surrounding whispers "no revival!"
Any peace I have been denied
Couldn't you have left me behind?!

Any mercy to my body I decline
Palms sweaty standing in the frontline
My heart beats and my blood boils
Soul swallowed with every recoil

Any mercy to your soul you decline
I start to decay, I'll never be fine
To you I'm forced to be loyal
How can you feel so royal?!

A crushed skull, shot in the head
Instantly I bleed as I drop dead
My men! Remember me...don't forget
Blacked out with a whole life to regret

To demise, I've been led
To demons, I've been fed
On a shelf of lost souls I've been set
All of your dark sides I have met

My fighting all in vain
No one else to blame
My soul trapped in demise
To myself I must apologize

Where is all your honor and fame?
It's absence puts me in pain
Our unification I now can realize
How me and me share our cries

PAIN - TRUE ENEMY

Intro:-

This one speaks of our only true enemy which is ourselves.

POEM

The pieces fall around of me
The entire world's an enemy
Heavens now have come to see
How I am cursed eternally

The pieces fall back to place
The enemy wears no face
Souls gone with no trace
Shame of a self-disgrace

The pieces now a memory
A divine plan meant for me
Have you now come to see?
There is no true enemy

Hunans lost in time and space
Devils fall from their grace
Lost in your own eternal maze
A man is what he really hates

A human is only but a seed
I am perfectly meant to be
Constant denials of breaking free
Your soul now belongs to me

The pieces crushed with no trace
Inside yourself you never gaze
You create my only grace
Bound in your solid chains

You hate the enemy..
You trace the enemy..
You face the enemy!
You embrace the enemy.

PAIN - NEVER DIE

Intro:-

This poem speaks of the limitless power of the people upon their authorities.

POEM

Tired we start to get
In a freedom you've set
So much lies fed
Alive or breathing dead?

You shouldn't mess with me!
I'm never one, always a "we"
You shouldn't fucking bound me!
You know I can get deadly

Tired of the deceival
The system is evil
Your false justice trials
You're pure vile!

I'll crush your false salvation
Tear apart all your creation
I seek the true final annihilation
Of your never-ending damnation

See? I'm still alive
Can you not hear cries?
See? We never die
Each with his free mind

Leave behind this delusion
To seek only one conclusion

Eradicate your black lies
Live a life we do not despise
Mute crows and no child cries
Our will shall never die

PAIN - INTRO

I apologize for the delay it took to publish this.
This is my 15th set and it's called "Pain".
Unfortunately my partner Yousef Youssry does not work with me anymore.

4.7.14

CHRONICLES OF RELIGIOUS FEVERS - SINNED TO BE DEPRESSED

Intro:-
Let us tell you something about modern Egypt, we don't take mental illness seriously. If a person is suffering, they either suck it up and shut up about it or they seek God's guidance; because mental illness is thought to be deficiency in faith, poor compliance to rules and a wrath from God. They rarely notice that it might be just a medical condition.
This is the last poem of our set ad it's about a boy suffering from depression and no one noticed till it was too late.
N.B. it's all fictional, but who knows it might have actually happened to some people.

POEM

Depressed, compressed
Feelings in this house suppressed
Torn, ignored
The stinky shirt for months I've worn
Denied, petrified
Dingy bed, night and day go undefined
A headache, a voice
Speaking, not my first choice
Constant fight
Starved yet no appetite
Fries or peas
Just the thought through my body squeezed
Dead, glum
I lay forever numb

Blame, shame
Of this boy holding my name
Weakness of religion
Prayers cut out like a clean incision
Religion prescripts
Pray or breathe to get hit
Dead glum
He lays forever useless and numb!

Dust, socks
I clean round him around the clock
Stiff, solid
I never imagined I bore a heart so horrid
Pain, suspicion
His hollow eyes may be more than contrition
The boy dead and glum
May be saved from being numb

Hopeless, helpless
Seen dozens of this lame abyss
On such, I feed
Keep them till I satisfy my greed
"Your son is not glum'
"He has only gone spiritually numb"

Religions involved
Humans devolved
False presumptions
Beauty made into destruction
History narrates tragedies
Made by "faithful" prodigies
Why must we kill?
Under the name of His will
Why must we torture?
Claiming it's His order
Angel's gone dead and glum
He will lay forever numb

CHRONICLES OF RELIGIOUS FEVERS - HOLY FIRE

Intro:-
This poem is about people in a village in Russia sickened by a condition known as ergotism. Their extremities become gangrenous (means their toes, fingers, ear lobes are black and they fall off), and their bodies become convulsive (which they explained as the "devil's possession"). They later found out that it's just a fungi called ergot that infected their rye (used to make bread), not the devil's scheme to destroy their good souls.

N.B. (the ergotism part is true, but the events in the poem are fictional; although some people were burned because they had that condition)
Artwork taken from  http://bjws.blogspot.com/2014_01_28_archive.html?m=1

POEM

"Ah!" She yelped "Is that a crack I behold?!"

"Is that rot oozing in my child's throat?!"

"Nipples both droughty and gangrene from the dripping"

"Shawl on hair I snatched with fingers throbbing"

"Wrapped it around breasts and coaxed till only milk trickled"

"Through blue jerking lips tot suckled"

"Oh my Malish suck to get strong"

"The portruding veins in your eyes are surely from the cold"

His chubby legs turn and twitch

And from his teensy foot flowed a brown stench

"Oh Babushka's forseeings in the field were true"

"It's god's punishment for the rye I snitched"

"Ah! My baby's soul the devil stole"

"And now I collect his fallen thumbs in my shawl"

Babushka told with her gnawed tongue and decaying gum

And now the saints and natives for malish have come

Women, children and men march in pure contempt

Vexed by the hovering cloud of the infected scent

They've come to burn their "curse"

Cold eyes pursue their goal with no remorse

"We're to take that devil's seed and send it back to hell"

Into their superstitious lies the foolish mother fell

And so she tossed the the screaming child into Babushka's arms

The shawl roped around his belly to muffle "the devil's" chant

The pulley squeaks as Malish is lowered in the fire

His screams rising into shrills like that of a divine choir

She could hear his ruffled breaths, his sizzling flesh

And stood still and steady, a proud mother of her baby's death

The village sang "The devil has been burned!"

"Satan, is your lesson yet learned?!"

"The sons of god never withdrew!"

"Oh my lord, we've killed the devil for you!"

Lightning struck as the Earth shook

Heavens screamed and all men looked

To see the golden glow in the sky

Instinctually all knew it was the Divine

The lord the Almighty has spoken

To answer a desperate call of the brainless broken

"I have come to curse the world"

"For the blood of the boy you murdered"

The so-called sons of the lord

Heard the fires as it roared

Readying up to imprison their souls

I wreak havoc upon them all

The child was innocent

Your judgement false

Now in the air fly his remnants

In the village of now lost souls

His ashes softly in their lungs settled

To butcher and fry through their blood vessels

The brown rot now flowed across the streets

Seeping through their "Sunday" hoods seams

"Taste the wrath of God upon thee"

"The village cursed for all eternity"

CHRONICLES OF RELIGIOUS FEVERS - DANDELION'S PLAGUE

Intro:-
Around the 1300s something fun reached the shores of Italy, it's called the Black Death.Let me tell you why they called it that; it was caused by a virus that took three forms, one that infected the nodes, another that attacked the lungs, and the third poisoned the blood. The sanitation in Europe at that time was nearly non-existent, so the disease spiraled across Europe killing millions of people. You should know that this disease traveled around by rats.

Doctors were helpless and ignorant, they had no idea how to treat this disease. So the church took command, and in the midst of frustration started accusing people (75% of them women) that they were witches! 9 million women died in that era because they were said to perform dark magic.
This poem is about the Val Camonica's witch trials in the 1500s in Italy. All the events are true; the torture methods, the bishops capturing people, even the meadows are real. Only the characters are our creations.

N.B. E'una bella giornata : It's a beautiful morning        
Dottore : Doctor        
Singorina : Miss        
Dente di leone : Dandelions

POEM

"No garment ... no garment covering my body"

"What body? Rather pink warts and burning polyps"

"My eyes squirmed among the blisters to watch him too shy to study"

"E'una bella giornata" her voice graveled by the plagues wallops

He nods and beneath the handkerchief contorts a smile

"Signorina" he muffled. "I was summoned by your neighbours"

"Mi dispiace" she rasped. "They must be by the scent defiled"

His eyes shifting,  the physician approached to conquer the fading light.

"Where are your servants, signorina?" He asked disgusted but polite

"Call me Caterina" she attempted a smile. "They retreated for their lives"

"But that soft quilt was by my kind maiden styled"

Her brightened mood struck him, and he shakly pulled the quilt.

"Dottore, please don't cover me, my decaying skin is on fire"

He descended to his knees to view the barbarous design

Lips twitching,  nose oozing stench,  nipples blemished.

She coughed her lungs out, blood spurting spots of carmine.

Moans of agony stopped his sudden flinch

He caught her mutilated eyes, his thumbs on his forehead pinched

"Caterina, I can offer no help"

"In this grand scheme of God's penalty,  I am a helpless wretch"

She inhaled a slow easy breath and whispered "I smell dandelions"

Among the death shrieks that roamed the streets

And the rotten bodies' filth that raped the breeze

Caterina recalled a memory and closed her aching eyes

And muted the razors paddling through her neck and thighs

She visioned the wide meadows before the Black Death streak

Erased from her memory tales about mass graves

About bodies in the meadow with no coffins only sheets

She visioned behind her eyelids the grand bonnet on her golden hair

The satin dress ribbons and a fearless young heart's flare

The dandelions carried by the gentle wind above the green grass,

And chuckles raced her breath as she strode in the shadow of youth's glare

Now, her breath is raced by poison through her blood.

"I smell dandelions" she whispered again, and her eyes tear up.

The solid stare in his eyes softened as he plead.

"Caterina, in the name of the Saints forgive me, I'm your knell"

"Do not fret faithful dottore. There's no cure for all the ill"

"No!" He hastened to explain but it was in vain

For the church's bishops had crashed through the door with chains

"In the name of God" the bishop spat. "In the name of Val Camonica's Saints"

"You wicked instrument of Satan is declared a witch, a murderous fiend"

"You recited devilish spells to bring our people the plague"

"Your neighbours swore a witness of wicked magic, thunder and earthquakes"

"You are hereby sentenced to public torture and balzing stakes"

The black robed men chained her limbs and roped her hair

And across the floor dragged her frail skin

Skin are pink shreds tearing like dandelion specks flying into the air

Helpless lady chained and dragged in the streets

Stomped and kick by hundreds of men's feet

Diseased lady with no power to even scream

Villagers shout "there is the wife of the fiend"

Hopeless lady thought to be a witch

The dragging stops as she starts to twitch

"Beat her to death" the shouts said

"But that way she"ll be quickly dead!"

Boiled oil be spilt in the witch's eye

The witch is not yet allowed to die

"Torture her and pour some more!"

"Punish the deeds of the devil's whore!"

"Find her the tiniest, rusty cage"

"Let her taste the nation's rage"

"Lock it with chains so there is no way to flee"

"Let it dangle from the strongest tree"

"It has been decided, we shall do so"

"Leave her to hang and have her flesh eaten by the crows"

Wails for mercy pierced through her hushed ears

It's like listening from the depths of undisturbed seas

Wrestled, she come to open her eyes to a crimson veil

Dripping blood from her torn scalp clouded her once blue eyes

She squeezed them hard and red tears trailed

The scene theatric, each soul just in its place

Clerks with hands crossed as they observed the bustling stage

A perfect circle of dangling bodies like hanging oranges from trees

Hot wrought iron slowly gutting, intestines spiralling on lea

Torches incinerated, while flesh rotated like goats for a feast

"Dente di leone" she smiled, as fire blazed near

The eager punisher laughing like a beast.

CHRONICLES OF RELIGIOUS FEVERS - ELIXIR OF LIFE

Intro:-
Another one about how ignorance and fear, and blind faith in religion can result in disasters.This time the disease is Polio myelitis (means inflammation of the spinal cord matter).  The problem with this disease is that it has the symptoms of a cold, but before you know it you're paralyzed and your body is deformed. It can look disturbing, even "demonic".

N.B. all the events in this poem are purely fictional.

POEM

Once upon a time far far away

In a golden kingdom on an infected bay

The men's prayer shook the palace like a beast

"Oh lord have mercy upon us" cried the priest

Rush to the rails and watch them drop still

The once green hills now matted by the wailing ill

"Oh! The good people sickened, they scream and crawl"

"The golden kingdom must not fall"

"We must all labor to find a way"

"To eternally wipe out this fascist plague"

"A potion? A prayer, or do we drought the bay?"

"No, loyal courtmen, I now shall sail away"

"In search of the Amrita, the elixir of life"

"And I, the king, shall lead this strife"

Moons after moons in thirst and heat

Stings of scorpions and soldiers' sanities fleet

Stumbled through seas and lands

Finally to reach an ocean of sands

Delusions of the mind drilled on the boulders

Moulded them into stretched jaws and begging smoulders

My head I slammed with my hands and called on the heavens

To spare my sanity and omit these swevens

Ghosts emerged saying "These are the faces of kings and soldiers"

"Who've sought this Amrita for disorder"

But for greed I do not want it

And so it emerged from among the silt

"Use it well" the ghosts spoke

"For in each cord of life is a thread of death"

"Mix it with water and lace it with bread"

"Upon my soul, my kingdom shall have no dead"

"My king the plague is defeated but a fret is in due"

"Amrita is drained" said the priest "not a drop is there for you"

Lungs petrify into a pair of sponges

Vomit drips on his throne and pins through the neck plunge

He screamed "Remove those thorns beneath my skin"

No reply, so his nails scratched the delusional stings

Straps of skin clung to his nails

His bones started to frail

They swirled and swirled into solid rolls

Like tendrils of grapes but grey, stiff and cold

And so his limbs and ribs deformed

And his courtmen threw him in a filthy volt

"This is the work of a curse" announced the devious priest

"For befouling our fathers' sacred potion"

They did not bother to rub their heads long

Their minds were made that the once king is now a worthless frog

The "good" people bustled to the hills

And with their immortal hands set the cross still

They had to manipulate his limbs like clay

To defy the contortion that fashioned its own way

His finger digging in his holy book, the priest preached under "the "cursed's" feet

Worrying about the two stolen spoons of Amrita beneath holy sheets

CHRONICLES OF RELIGIOUS FEVERS - FALL OF ARES

Intro:-
Hippocrates, father of western medicine, was highly skilled in performing brain surgeries. He was also the first to announce that seizures had nothing to do with the wrath of the gods, that it was purely physical. This poem is about an army commander who loses his first war, and he's devastated, scared of Ares' (God of war) punishment.

N.B. the surgery part is true, along with the instruments. The rest is fictional.
Trephine is a surgical instrument used to make circular inscisions, like ones in a skull.

POEM

My spartan brothers share my battlefield

The man to my right is my shield

Warriors of river Styx eternally victorious

Warriors of Olympus, so glorious

High hopes left us cold and dead

The enemy has interrupted our tread

Shocked men crawl in search for their swords

Slayed men telling their very last words

I see my undefeatable army tremble

Might becomes fear with failure to assemble

How has the enemy interrupted our tread?!

Scraps of wood and blood on my head

Sky moves slowly and the ground turns light

My army has lost their very first fight

In a confused storm of men, I hear the screams "RETREAT!"

In a haunting shadow of our first defeat

"Golden crimson sand, my ears defeaned"

"Chopped arms, dangling nerves, swords through throats driven"

"Threads of sun-baked skin holding a mutilated his face like delicate feathers"

"Begs from my warrior's eyes and shrieks like those of a disgruntled griffin"

"I plunge my merciful sword through his heart and pray I'm forgiven"

The overthrown commander falls to the ground

Coiling in agony, jaws clenching, breathing bound

His once feared armor now stained by streams of his people blood

His body against the heavy metal clamored and skin cut

Froth splattered from his mouth, tongue trapped between his teeth

Eyes lost in head, bones start to creak

Warriors wounded and weary stood silent and still

Following his writhing torso with glaring eyes

"Let him be" whispered one. "That's Ares will"

"The wrath of Him drills through his brain"

"Holy spears chisels his sanity to pay for his sin"

"That's not god's will" Hippocrates culled.

"It's blood and humour trapped beneath his skull"

Solemn, he knelt and slowly turned his head

His seizures stopped and so all gasped and crept

"Carry him carefully" he lulled "and lay him on a clean bed"

Smooth trephines, smooth circles in his skull

He drained the blood and with linen rags stuffed

Glimmer in commander's eyes returned

With honest prayers to Ares it yearned

Torn between what's real and what's safe Hippocrates smiled

"Medicine and god saved your master mind in this unfortunate night"

CHRONICLES OF RELIGIOUS FEVERS - THE WEDJAT

Intro:-
I know it's a weird title, it means (Eye of Horus). Horus, in ancient Egypt, was the protector of the people. They claimed his eye was watching over them all the time. In this poem a queen has an eye infection (which was most common after the Nile flood), and you're going to see how they used to make up as a "magical" way for Horus protect those who wore it.N.B. also events are entirely fictional. Although Sirius was a star that indicated the beginning of the River flooding; and the spell she's saying was truly recited while putting makeup.

POEM

Shimmer dancing on her unveiled thighs

Shimmer from marble fountains, shimmer from golden arches

All made by the grand glow of Sirius the star

She playfully brushed aside the linen strap

And made her sparkling skin a brighter star than those in the sky

Then she tenderly unhooked the cross threads

To let the porcelain white dress free to fly

The gemmed necklace unlocked, cluttered against the faience

To grant the perky shimmer a bare chest to pry

She lies across the sheets and stroked the gold crown to the ground

Her short raven locks dangling over her eye

"Ow! You wicked maiden. The remedy you designed is wretched"

"Burns! Burns eating my eye, tears bulging into a sty"

"My queen, the drug is from the god's river"

"Reckoned and blessed, with my clean hand I plied"

"The night is a new year and so the river floods"

"You fool! You must wait until the land is dry"

"Sirius glimmer I can no longer spy!"

"Come now and don't fret my glorious queen"

"Rest your eyes and your back peacefully lie"

"As I mix the ore of kohl and the green copper"

"And chant the sacred rhyme that keeps god's cure nigh"

"Welcome thou splendid eye of Horus"

"To combat the threat of any god or godess"

The benevolent sunlight brightens the endless sky

The god has been awakened from his shrine

"To the eyes of this mortal woman"

"Protection behind me, protection here comes protection"

Under the eye of Horus no pharaoh shall die

The river flows as the kohl goes dry

CHRONICLES OF RELIGIOUS FEVERS - INTRO

This is my 14th set on this blog.
This set is a very special one as Nada Deban and I wrote this set together.
Nada's style that you all have seen in "Legend of the whore" clashes with my style in this set to create something that hopefully all of you will like.
This set speaks about how people, society and cultures associated religion with medicine over the years until this day.

27.6.14

2 A.M

At 2 A.M the angels cry
At 2 A.M silence dies
At 2 A.M I reach the end
At 2 A.M I shall ascend

What did that angel say?
"You are the chosen one"
"Upon you all hopes lay"
"The agony you suffer from"
"It shall be your guide"
"The way you cherish your pride"
"The end is near"
"Only you see clear"
"We've come for you"
"You must make us into.."
"Into..."

"The effect wore off, you end now"
"The use is gone, you may frown"
"At 5 A.M you're but a clown"

I sense my regular beats
Again, the cycle repeats

24.6.14

MY TORN MENTOR

Intro:-

This poem speaks of a very great man that has unfortunately left us and that man is one of the greatest guitarists that have ever walked the Earth,that man is Pantera's Dimebag Darrell.

On December 8, 2004, Darrell was shot onstage at the Alrosa Villa in Columbus, Ohio. The gunman, Nathan Gale, shot Darrell 3 times in the head.
Darrell's last words were "Van halen".

In the memory of a great man and a great band. RIP Dimebag Darrell.

Poem:-

We played our magic metal
We helped your souls settle
We stood on the stage
All in shocked rage
Then the devil's song
Played all night long

I have a killed a legend for you
Now there's no one to look up to
Your mentor lies torn
He's never to be reborn
On the stage were his remenants
I feel I've made a difference!

Besides me fell my friend
Before my eyes, he ends
I can't believe my eyes
Tell me it's a night of lies
I just stood and stared
Tell me it's but a nightmare

I stood between my brothers
My torn mentor's lovers
Heart as heavy as a rock
My brothers feel my shock
Heart began to rush
He died in front of us

Lying on the ground
Music is never bound
Alive or dead
I never end
They don't seem to get me
My art stands for infinity
Oh, they were all in pain
Only one broken man to blame
I stood for what I am
I spoke all I can
"Van halen" I cried
The legend has died
But never to be torn
For I am constantly reborn

21.6.14

DEPTHS - HOLY GENOCIDE (BONUS)

With my steel will
Time stays still
No baphomet
I am the prophet
The strength of war
The god of all lords
Mind faster than lightning rods
I have surpassed any immortal gods
For this what I am
Decider of divine plan
The end is near
Your fate is clear
As you fall into my hands
Blood on every grain of sand

The message I deliver
The stronger shall shiver
The message lasts forever
All shall rot and sever

My final tyrant rule
The true meaning of cruel
Do not dare resist
Gods cease to exist
Comet shower
Divine power
Fall to me
None shall be

DEPTHS - CONLUDUS

Intro:-

This is the trial of the fourth soul to dominate.
Conludus means confident and funny.

Poem:-

I am your irony
We can truly see
Any obstacle we can flee
Any great we can be
Our only source of resilience
Is our never-ending confidence
Needing no form of violence
Only our calmly sarcastic sense

We can reach anywhere
Anything we can repair
I am your ability
To reach the infinity
I am the conludus
I am your true guidance

Is confidence enough?
Life's too rough
For confidence and irony
That isn't all I need to be

DEPTHS - AJUV-INFIRMUS

Intro:-

This is the trial of the third soul to dominate.
Ajuv-infirmus means helpless and weak.

Poem:-

We're so weak
Don't stand up and speak
You can't conquer your fate
You can only silently hate
Trap yourself in demise
You may never criticize
You are helpless
In a world so selfish
Where smart souls frown
Where all hunt you down
The tears you shed
Be thankful you're not dead
Only sadness lies ahead

Trap myself in lies
Let out silent cries
None stop to help
Eternally alone I yelp
Cursed bloody tears
A world of fears
Where I can't be fearless
The inner ajuv-infirmus

DEPTHS - ODIUM

Intro:-

This is the trial of the second soul to dominate.
Odium means hate.

Poem:-

I'm you, we're sick
In a world so chaotic
There is no peace on any land
There is no request, only demands
No humans, only whores
No peace, only wars
One must be bad
To reach what the greats had
Otherwise he turns mad

The gift I pass on to you
The darkness inside you grew
Do not rebel
From your origin of hell
On me, don't turn your back
Forever hold on to the black

The shadow in me creeps
He evil it constantly leads
Are sins the only way?
Is darkness where I stay?

DEPTHS - AMBAX-SPIRITUS

Intro:-

This is the trial of the first soul to dominate.
Ambax-spiritus means ambitious, peaceful and inspirational.

Poem:-

I am who shall dominate
I hold inside me no hate
I hold your peace inside
I am your only true guide

I have what you desire
You are what I inspire
I am your creativity
Perpetuator of your activity

Domination of your soul
Reach you to your goals
Do not be so weak
Follow what you seek
Follow the light
Seek your true right
I make you ambitious
The inner ambax-spiritus

Does he make me smart?
Does he create my art?
Can I leave him?
The only light is so dim

DEPTHS - CONFLICT

Intro:-

This tells the beginning of the conflict of the four souls inside the man.

Poem:-

Inside me, four people
I feel extremely feeble
To each I try to listen
But I can't hear all their whispers
I only have two ears
The image is not so clear
I only have one mind
They keep it clouded and blind

Give in, we are you
How can this be true?
I am one not four
Oh, my friend there is more
We shall all stand as one
In your blood we all run
But in your veins we can't all flow
Only one of your souls must glow
We represent your instinct
We transform into a conlict
We shall guide you to the light
Guide what remains after our fight

I stand in me
Nothing I can see
Just leave me be!

DEPTHS - INTRO

This is the 13th set that speaks about a man who has four men living inside his head and each tries to take control of him.
It consists of five main poems that tell the plot and one bonus poem that has nothing to do with the plot.

17.6.14

REFLECT TRANSGRESSIONS - LIFE

Life is a gold-plated gate
Go ahead and seal your fate
Upon yourself you'll be no lord
Your memories won't be heard
Through time you must shine
You are what you define

On a fake throne
You'll be born
All innocence shall be torn
Welcome to the paradise of devils
Where souls are labeled with levels

Death is a rusty black gate
Try escape but it's your fate
It is the only way
To die, rot and decay
It is the definite end
Helpless and with no friend

REFLECT TRANGRESSIONS - FATHER AND SON

Intro:-
This one speaks of the tale of Icarus and Daedalus and their failed attempt to fly.

POEM

Father and son try to fly
To the depths of the sky
Sky is highest limit
They plan to break it

Having no fears
We spent long years
To fly with our wings
To the divine rings

Father and son
Fly as one
With wings of wax
As icarus's wing cracks
As their wings melt
The end they met

Zeus has shouted
"He who grows wings of wax"
"All logic he lacks"

Agony has sprouted
"Only he who grows wings of steel"
"Only he shall fly for real"

Father and son try to die
Father and son fall from the sky

REFLECTING TRANSGRESSIONS - EMPTINESS OF THE MIRROR

Intro:-
This is the day where the man has completely become pure.

POEM

My soul is white
I'm a man of might
I've finally rid my soul
Evil won't make me fall

Time to see me reflect
A physical form of perfect
See what I've become
What puriity has done

What is this?
I do not exist?!
Is there no flawless?
Mary was not honest!

She has tricked me!
The mirror is now empty!

REFLECT TRANSGRESSIONS - THE CONSIENCE OF THE UNKIND

Intro:-
This one is a day where the man was just unkind.

The presence of mary again?
Today I haven't hurt a hen!
Why is she here?
"Mary is always clear"
She ironically said
"Be kind before you're dead"

"Seek a pure mind"
"You must be kind"
"This is the end of the way"
"In the sins you'll not stay"

But it was just unkindness
"Still part of your blindness"
"Feel your guilty consience"
The last sin my friend
This one is the end

REFLECT TRANSGRESSIONS - THE BLINDNESS OF RAGE

Intro:-
This is the day of the man's sin of rage

POEM

Once again condemned upon what I led
Bloody mary in the mirrror said
With blood in her eyes
"You are where sin lies"

"Today you were blind of rage"
"You cross another evil stage"
"How blind you were"
As I looked at her
"You must forgive"
"With evil, do not live"

Today you've shown aggression
With your angry transgression
Never rage and decide
Don't walk by lucifer's side
Do not stay blind
Seek a perfect mind

REFLECT TRANSGRESSIONS - THE SLOTH OF THEFT

Intro:-
This is the day of the man's sin of theft.

POEM

Reflecting on what I steal
The mirror is so real
Mary devours my soul
For answering Satan's call

Her vicious screams said
"They work till they're dead"
"Why don't you work yourself?"
"Instead of your crimes of theft"

The curse she creates
Growing my self-hate
The good scream
While the evil die
In a bloody stream
Where all souls cry

On Earth none are victorious
So one must work to be glorious

REFLECT TRANSGRESSIONS - THE PRICE OF LUST

Intro:-
This is the day of the man's sin of rape.

POEM

A demon above Earth's crust
Paying the price is a must
I am but garbage
Sin greater than carnage
Shall mary scream once more?
I have felt this before
I'm worth nothing
My fate is saddening

Mary screams again
Myself I can't defend
She shall destroy me
In this mirror I see
My punishment upon my sin
Destroying my soul from within

This sin of lust
For it, I am crushed
It's a devilish touch

REFLECT TRANGSRESSIONS - THE BURDEN OF BLOOD

Intro:-
This is the day of the man's sin of murder.

POEM

Swimming in a bloody pool
What I have done, so cruel
Already starting to regret
The end my victim met

Went home
Cleaned my hands
Heart turned to stone
Only to break to sands

Looked into a mirror of curse
I have seen a devil's force
Have seen what I've done
Satan and I become one
In the mirror bloody mary stares
Mary's reminder of my despair

Mary's screams
I can hear
Where I reflect
For myself, no respect
A black rose's bud
The burden of blood

REFLECT TRANSGRESSIONS - INTRO

The 12th set of six main poems and two bonus poems that have nothing to do with the plot of the six main poems.
It speaks of a man who ends all his days by looking into a mirror that reflects on him the sins of his day.

14.6.14

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - RESPECT DEITY

Intro:-
This one speaks of a lifestyle in which all humans just respect each other.

POEM

Our different religions
Constant borders and divisions
Causing hate and treason
Actions with no valid reasons

Many different races
Causing us to look at faces
Our judgement upon blood and skin
Limiting our vision of what's within

I need a new deity
Listen before you hate me
It is my deity of respect
Where only morals reflect
Respect to one another
A deity where all are brothers
A deity of what lies in the heart
Nothing ever breaks us apart
My deity of only respect
Holy and mortals intersect

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - NULLOPHOBIA

Intro:-

This speaks of how fears can hold us back especially when they are fears of nothing.

POEM

From nothing you fear
Afraid but nothing clear
Opportunities taken away
In the darkness you stay
That is what you choose
Infinite is what you lose
In constant and strong pain
What you fear only shall remain
Will you rise rise?
And silence the cries?
Get up and say
"I have pushed my fear away"
Got up feared not even the divine
"Finally saw what is rightfully mine"
"Upon my steeple I climb"
"I fear no man, place or time"

I have passed through
What I never knew
That the price to truly alive
Is greater than the price to survive
My nullophobia I flee
I have become free

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - LAWFULLY WEDDED MONEY

Intro:-
This attacks the way of marriage in the middle east.

POEM

What is this supposed to mean?
To buy soulmates with your green?
Hold her everyday, call her honey
"You're my lawfully wedded money"

Materialism I took
Get up and cook
Why are you here?
The table isn't clear
Each of us has his part
I work, you satisfy my heart
You keep me happy
Make me look classy
In the end, it is all about me

What does it state?
If money controls fate
How do we look?
If ignorance we haven't shook
Having damnation stuck to us
Removing it is definitely a must

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - ROCKSTAR PRIEST

Intro:-

This one is about famous people who do not become slaves to fame and truly teach their followers something and of course not necessarily rockstars.

POEM

There he stood on the stage
There I saw the mystical sage
To a world he took me
A world where I see truly

No fancy car
For the rockstar
He only believed in his message
Enlightment was his only lineage

The rockstar shows the art
Understanding of the smart
Upon us he told the tales
Only to his god he hails

He's our mentor at least
Oh, the rockstar priest
Despite all his fame
He remembers all names

He honors us, we honor back
We hold on to the passion
He guides us out of the black
Of a cave that's slowly clashing
Towards a light he hasn't made
But he has never let it fade

Our example, not our deity
Our brother, what we seek to be

ANTI SOCIETY WISE- ظلامنا

Intro:-
This is my first arabic poem, it speaks of how we're always lost in shadows of ignorance/hate/envy/anger but those shadows are but parts of us.
I apologize if there are any non-arab viewers.

POEM

فى الظلام الانسان مفقود
من الظلمات يخرج و يعود
فى الداخل هو فى قيود
الظلمات ليس لها حدود
 

اسير عالم بلا نور
اسير فى ظلمات الصدور
عبد لهمسات سوداء
تأتى من كل الانحاء

فى الظلام الحكيم قد مر
ليحارب فى داخله الشر
قتال ابدى بداخل الانسان
الأسود هو فقط احد الألوان

12.6.14

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - THE PATH

The path is so long
Different is wrong
The path is so wide
Most change is denied
Every unique is defied

Different is a stranger
Always a bringer of danger
A path so crowded
Where "normal" is founded
A crowd so loud
Bluffing so proud

He who walks the middle of the road
Believes whatever he is told
He who stands upon the light pole
Has a long way down to fall
The path is too tight
To head for a corner with no light

For any creation
Has become damnation
It's something new
Across it flew
Go with the tide
You're forever denied

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - EXECUTION OF LOVE

Intro:-
This one attacks the way love is looked at in the middle east.

POEM

Execute love in the name of manner
I've claimed to be your life's planner

When told not to do it
I do the exact opposite
We are told "no hate"
"Manners you can not create"

No love and no hate
Obey what we dictate
No hate and no love
How should we rise above?

Do not be their machine
Understand what they mean
Do not be their slave
Our instincts we must save

From hate we bleed
On love we feed
Open up your eyes
See beyond justified lies

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - OPPRESSIVE SUBJUGATION II

There is a man called rob
With his clueless job
He weny to work everyday
To afford a place to stay

Why he worked he never knew
What he did he has no clue
Just applied with a "qualification"
To become a part of "civilization"

One from a deck of cards
Working so long and hard
Just another machine
Never ever cleaned
Left to rust
Thrown in the dust

Rob will always regret
The day that he let
Himself blindly work
Just like a useless dork

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - INSTINCTUAL METAMORPHOSIS II

I feel a transformation go through
All thanks to you
There is evil in my soul
Thanks to you all

Why am I feeling this?
Going through metamorphosis?
Society?
They all lied to me
Grew alone
Heart's turned to stone

Soul grown wretched
Mind's blackening wicked
I can never control
It has intruded my soul
I can not help it
In me, it perfectly fit
Shadows never pause
A humanity's black cause

Blindly we plant the seed
Let it grow twisted and tall
On it we blindly feed
Make sure it'll never fall
You are what you eat
Devils never retreat
What an end we shall meet

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - DAWN OF BULLSHIT

Intro:-

This poem is about something that really hit me hard, a tragedy that has happened in Egypt. It is a tragedy to every single egyptian and as a matter of fact a tragedy to every human on Earth.
The extreme sexual harrassment that has happened on Sunday 8th of June in Tahrir square.
May every human or piece of shit get what they deserve.

POEM

Eclipse in my heart
What has been raped
Breaks me apart
Oh my, such damned fate

They called him sick
I called him a dick
Is it human he claims to be?
Can't he see he is unworthy?

Devils spit
Upon your sin
An evil origin
Your dawn of bullshit

Crushed your heart
From demons you're raped
Fucking break you apart
Fall into rightful fate
For the crime you commit
Emissary of Baphomet

ANTI SOCIETY WISE - INTRO

This is our Eleventh set.
It criticizes things around us everyday and brings two old poems back in their part II.
I hope you all enjoy it and thank you very much for reading my blog.

9.6.14

UNIVERSAL PEACE - PROWESS OF THE ARTIST

Intro:-

This one speaks of the boy's magical ink. Enjoy it and thank you.

POEM

One day the boy had no ink
To him the world seemed to stink
From the villagers no ink was given
So he can help their living
Then the boy recalled
What his grandfather brought
"Use it in a time so cold
Only when all hope rots"
It was the ink of the souls
Grandpa's goal was unknown
Recklessly he wet his feather
Didn't care if it was clever
And as he drew
His imagination
As he never knew
Was turned into creation

He found himself in his mind
His own life he has defined
Where he has claimed all power
Searched for the princess tower
"The dragon I have come to slay
So I may take my princess away"
By the boy's strong will
The dragon was killed
In a land of his omens
Where sand turns to oceans
He has saved his princess
Oh, the artist's great prowess

Artwork by Ahmed Adel

UNIVERSAL PEACE - DEMISE OF THE ARTIST

Intro:-

This one speaks of a boy who lived in a village where all had to work on the farms but he never went to work and always spent his time drawing.

POEM

An old village lies
Where all despised
A child of young age
Who felt in a cage
Of work everyday
He'd never work anyway

His art was to think
Then draw it into ink
Escaping a world so blind
To the adventures of his mind
While they all harvest
No one understood the artist

Therefore for any cost
He'd like to feel lost
He finds no way out
Art is the only route
The art only seen in his eyes
The artist is surely in demise

He shall create his own cage
Where he is his own sage

Artwork by Ahmed Adel

UNIVERSAL PEACE - CINDY

Intro:-
This one speaks of the homeless boy Josh and his love for a rich girl he has never seen called Cindy.

POEM

I am but a poor child
Living a life of no trials
I have no place that is home
All I bear is torn
I roam the roads
Even if it rains or snows

I sleep on one street
To stare at a window
So I can feel my heartbeat
And to see her shadow

I stare till I fall asleep
I am in love with her deep
Love was not a choice
As I was charmed by her voice

I had no chance for sure
She lived in gold while I was poor
My life should be tough
But her shadow was enough
Lost in time and space
Wished to see her face

To the rich demands
I had no chance
The ones like me couldn't bear
But I never really cared
For her love set me free
The love I hold for Cindy

UNIVERSAL PEACE - THERA'S SCALES

Intro:-

This one is a follow up to our recent Thera poems.
It speaks of good and bad on Thera.

POEM

Thera the parallel to Earth
Switch good and evil's worth
Good flies through the air
While evil is not to be shared
The black is unseen
While the light is so clear

Thera's parallel scales
Where all evil fails
And lives as a tortured soul
Roaming with no goal
Purification is an instict
While on Earth almost extinct

Of evil
Good is born
Fall for no deceival
It's an infinite storm

Earth's scales
Evil prevails
All good fall
Justice crawls

Look at the opposite
Stand up and honor it

UNIVERSAL PEACE - EQUALITY

Intro:-
This one speaks of a philosopher who claimed all were to be equal by the efforts of man not god.

POEM

Once a philosopher stood
To manifest what we could
We are one
Under the same sun
But to have equal people
There must be no steeple

Equality is not god's matter
It is our own world-shatter
It is a matter of man
To be equal we can

Escape tyrant claws
Know your cause
No one is the best
All part of one test

All seek equality
No more inferiority
Build a new reality
Of what the world could be

UNIVERSAL PEACE - INNER PEACE

I feel a light in me
It is setting me free
As if the angels sing
As if I've grown wings
I can feel a presence
A heavenly essence
It was so quiet
Yet I can't deny it
It freed me from a place so blind
It has took over my whole mind
This is what I sought
Against the dark I fought
Stopped my inner fight
I can finally see the light
The peace we achieve
You must only believe
The peace all can reach
The confusion must be breached
Break down the dark walls
Release your soul

UNIVERSAL PEACE - INTRO

This is our tenth set in which we try to reach in to our inner peace and most probably fail.
There is a hint that you may not understand and thats okay and that hint is that this whole set speaks from an inner perspective.

4.6.14

SHADOW

My own shadow flies upon me
Blackens all the light that I see
As I try to right all my wrongs
It whispers "hell is where you belong"
It lifts me up
My hands in cuffs
Throws me to the ground
The torture of the hellbound
I try to break away
But I am a helpless prey
Chaining me with sorrow
Making sure I'm always hollow

My own shadow walks before me
Mocking all that I could ever be
On my rage it feeds
Growing into my evil deeds
Constantly putting me down
The reminder of the hellbound

My own shadow surrounds me
It lies everywhere I could see
It wrongs all my rights
Blackens all sources of light
Reminds me of what I'll never be
My shadow I can not flee
As I frowned
I remembered, I am hellbound

31.5.14

His Eyes

His Eyes

"This poem was written by our amazing friend and supporter Noor Duncan. She's been very supportive and now its our turn"



Those eyes, soft as silk and warm as the spring days.
The waves of Poseidons' seas hed the same color as those eyes,
His eyes, they searched and scanned every inch of the world and tries,
To see the beauty of something alive but dying.

Those eyes, were like the waves of a settling sea, calm.
But eventually those eyes were no longer bittersweet.
They were haunted by expectation he could no longer meet.
So the only thing that would drown his mind was that clear drink.

Those eyes, once soft were ice cold and bloodshot.
Those eyes, matched the taste of awfully good kisses on the lips of random strangers.
Those eyes, would water and tear up with every shot of whatever was in his glass.
Those eyes, I would feel burning holes in the back of my head in class.

Those eyes, held thoughtless secrets from the dying world he once tried to love,
From the girl he tried to love.
From then on, his words were a leech to me, so hard to dispose of.
And forever his lips kept a smirk of hidden pain, hidden from the surface of his once settling waters.

Those eyes, stared blankly to the skies above, reflecting the contents of a scarred heart,
Those eyes, were so hard to part.
Especially since those eyes would remain staring at the sky, with the finished bottle in his limp hand, and blood beneath him. Staring dead to the sky, his eyes.

30.5.14

MANIFESTING HOLINESS - SUMMARY

This is only but a summary for the set in case it isn't that clear.
An angel named Metatron writes scripts of all lives and from all the evil he witnesses an evil soul is born inside then that evil soul evolves and transforms into a devil called Exiled who erases scripts instead of writing them.
Later Metatron overcomes his evil and throws Exiled out of the world.
A knight later escapes the world (From edges of the world" and meets Exiled and Xathmodeos (The demonic essence of fear) and slays both.
The knight then returns to the world and tries to guide all mankind.
His part is fully and done and he has completely purified himself into perfection and by that he transforms to an angel named Metatron and so the cycle repeats.

MANIFESTING HOLINESS - ATLAS OF ALL

This is the atlas of all
The fate of all souls
The journey of the knight
All that is wrong or right
The controller of all mortal land
Of all holy, godly command

Eternity of dark and light
As sun shines through the night
The order of all destiny
All the way down history
The knight's will changes the passive way
Where the light is, the darkness will lay

Destroyed a demon of fear
The answers seemed so clear
All fate, the knight broke
World of sins, misguided hopes
This world he has fleed
To erase every bad deed
To purify within
Overcome his sin
Is he to succeed?
Or will he eternally bleed?
Is he to fail?
Or will it be his perfect tale?
A journey of good and sickness
What the knight had to witness
Himself he has defined
In the journey of all divine
An Earthly rebel
On a journey of heaven and hell
Lucifer's parallel reflection
Physical manifestation of perfection
The knight's holy perfect answer
His transformation to an angel
The angel's name is metatron
And so the cycle goes on

Artwork by Ahmed Adel

MANIFESTING HOLINESS - THE KNIGHT'S PODIUM

I stand before you today
So the light does not decay
I stand before you now
To destroy an evil crown

My trial to cleanse
And stregthen our defense
We must unite
For an eternal fight
We must unite
To finally see the light
Evil and mankind must become unbound
This is our very own battleground

We shall not witness an angel requiem
This is why I stand on this podium
The ultimate power of unification
Stronger than any mortal creation

They say black and white
Are bound to always fight
On a never ending wheel
I believe that is unreal
For our hearts are steel
Unite against the wickedness
Evil is a but a symbol of weakness

This world we must cure
By each heart going pure
This world we must save
By making the devil our slave

The legends said
We'll raise the dead
As we all stood
The sons of all good
A pure brotherhood

Godly honor
Evil conquered
Devil's horror
Defeated under soldiers
Of all world's order
This is all in our hand
If united we shall stand
Help me reach the dream
As our sins we redeem
Erase the misery we've seen
We can all rise
Above our very demise
Purify a world's skies
Let me teach
Inside your hearts, I'll reach
For I've been out of the world
Held the evil as it has curled
Been out and back
It's time for evil to crack

MANIFESTING HOLINESS - HUMILITY

What has a human done?
To claim to be the one
What has a human brought?
To compensate the pride he sought

We are the mankind
Owning a superior mind
Upon your kings no defiance
Among yourselves all violence

What is on your inside?
How are you satisfied?
You are but one of mankind
And you have no right for pride

These very words
Go to slaves and lords
But your sins speak louder
How could be a prouder?
than the heavenly angels
When their grace you can not handle

MANIFESTING HOLINESS - CHARITY

MANIFESTING HOLINESS - CHARITY

Do not seek a greedy lifestyle
Your heart do not defile
From the dawn of time
Greed was but a crime
Greed is poison of the soul
The very end of us all

Have and hold on to charity
It comes with great clarity
That the sin of greed
Is but an evil seed
Related to every bad deed
For mankind for my heart bleeds

Mankind I must guide
Greed expelled from the inside
Follow down my path
Before the world blasts

Greed is a temporary thriller
But eternally an inner killer
Do not let it get ahold
Stand against evil strongly bold

MANIFESTING HOLINESS - TEMPERANCE (SELF-RESTRAINT)

A sin of kings and lords
You can't see what's yours
And what is not
Do not let yourself rot
Into the fire
For the unnecessary desire
To yourself do not be a liar

Learn to desire the moderate
Your superior mind, you must honor it
Your self-restraint
Become your own saint

You must know when enough is enough
Do not lead the world under your own bluff
Do not let yourself be a pig
No man on Earth is a true king

Claim the temperance
Bring yourself deliverance
Virtues start with acceptance
Run away from man's nature
Do not let evil be your stature